Final week of Term

Well this term has proved to be a rollercoaster for me. Got into a relationship after a few years single now back to single... learned alot about myself. Sister was diagnosed and been through breast cancer surgery. Losing my home to foreclosure and have no where to live but still managing to do my best in school. May not have been my whole 100% but i am thankful I have been able to keep up as well as i have. Anyways learning alot, making mistakes and living life right now. Guess I am going along for the ride and not worrying about the destination at this point. Hopefully only good suprises to come. Best to you all

New Relationship Over

Well the luck I asked for last week did not do much good. My relationship came to an end out of the blue after two and a half months. No fights, no arguments, no warning. Its crazy how everything can be going well and then poof all is changed. I am shocked at how much this hurts and the rejection that is felt. Why cant people use communication to get through things rather than just taking the easy way out and ending everything . I wish I had never opened myself up to again be hurt. This is just so hard and painful.

New Relationship After 15 yrs of marriage

I was married for 15 years and divorced appx 2 years ago. I stayed single mainly to find myself and adjust my life. Recently I have met someone and things advanced on a mental level much faster than I remember relationships from the past. I also did not remember how much effort it takes to share a life with someone. There's isn't any more just worrying about what I want or feel and there is always someone else to think about in any given situation. Its alot of work but has been good. Wish me luck.

Well this last week has been very hard. My sister had surgery yesterday to remove the cancer from her breast and the test performed before surgery did show that it has moved to some of the lymph nodes so during surgery they had to remove two of those. I have been travelling over 60 miles a day to help with their son and other needed things and have been stressed it is affecting my life as well. Its hard to watch someone you love battle cancer. Preety much consumes your life for awhile. Surgery seemed to be successful now we wait to see how the tissue looks and see if chemotherapy is needed. Positive Thoughts

When it rains it seems it always has to pour.

Well after the last year and a half of going through colon cancer with my mother and my grandfather who have been in remission so far, my father passing from Leukemia when I was 18, my aunt going through breast cancer and another aunt passing from lung cancer I thought that maybe we would have a break from the illnesses. Things have seemed to be going pretty well for the most part until the call came in this week from my brother whos wife has just been diagnosed with breast cancer. What a hard thing to go through. She is only 45 yrs old and is going through alot of stress. I am doing my best to stay focused on my life and be there for her and my brother during this very difficult time and to be honest I could not really think of anything else to blog about today.

Where am I going in Life?

I sat here thinking of what to write about. I came up with how much my life has changed in the past few years and started thinking if I even know where I am headed. I went from a married mother of 2 of 15 years and the administrative assistant to a corporation of three restaurants at 36 years old to a 38 yr old single mother of two who is a dislocated worker with a house in foreclosure and all material things gone. All in the blink of an eye. I am attending Kaplan to make a better life for myself and my children to rebuild a new foundation and make a better life. Thoughts still go through my head that I made the wrong decision to go back to school and struggle financially through it or just go get a job. Thats the question I ask myself everyday as I continue to try my best to keep up in school and move on..... keeping my fingers crossed it is what will be right in the end.

Little did I know I could use Psychiatric Help myself...LOL

While attending treatments and counseling with my son I found that I have some issues with my personality that inhibits me from being everything I can be. I guess I have signs of Profectionist Tendancies. Had no clue what that was or how it affected things in my life. The more I look into it the more I am learning that I could relieve alot of stress and conflict from my life by getting control of my own personal issues therefore helping my son in the process. So therapy here I come to let's see if this can help. :)